You might be wondering why some women stare at your breast when you are breastfeeding your baby, they aren’t trying to tell you to pack it up and put it away.
As you put the nipple in your baby’s mouth and make him suck there are a lot of thoughts going through their head and I know because here are the thoughts that go through my head when I stare at a woman breastfeeding her baby so you aren’t creep out next time that happens;
1. I’m wondering how you do that
I never got to nurse my own baby for long but watching you as you tried to pacify your hungry baby by bringing out your breast in full view of everyone while your other toddler is also seated beside you, I wonder where you get the strength to do this day in, day out.
2. Looking at you, I was reminded of how hard it was
We didn’t have a good start at breastfeeding, it hurt like hell and my boobs were cracked and painful and I felt like they are nailing my nipple every time my child put his mouth to it, yet I had to endure this for some time before things finally got back to normal. Watching you still breastfeeding your 1 year plus baby, I wished I was reminded of how hard it was and I wish I had tried harder with my baby.
3. I miss those moment of bonding with my baby
Although it was crazy and it was tough and I cursed and spanked her every time she bite me now that it’s over and as I watch you and your baby bond, I now realise that I missed those minutes spent holding my baby close to me during feeds while she stares at my face as if to memorise all it’s features.
4. You remind me of how far I went to breastfeed my baby
When I finally went back to work, breastfeeding was not easy, I had to enter one very tiny storeroom that was so tiny it was almost choking to pump so my engorged breast can have some relief and i can have enough feeds for my baby. The only places where I didn’t breastfeed or pump are, the cementary, inside the church, beside the dumpster and inside the toilet, besides these sacred or horrible places, there was no place I couldn’t breastfeed at.
And when I’m staring at you, I’m only amazed at your strength that you wouldn’t mind the 101 eyes that are staring at your beloved breast when you bring it out, your enduring spirit, that you could endure all the breastfeeding problems that came your way and I was hoping I could catch your eye so I could tell you how amazing you are with my gaze.
Seeing that you are in the mood of breastfeeding, I take off my eyes so you can have your privacy.